Another week has gone by but this one has had some major developments in it. Sam is smiling. Not the tweaking upwards of his lips that he’s done since he arrived in the world, but full on toothless, gummy, smiling. It’s like crack cocaine as far as I’m concerned; I can’t get enough. To ratchet the cute factor up a hundred fold he’s also now giggling. (Well, he’s making sounds which we’re classing as giggling.) It’s sublime. I am so smitten with this kid it’s not funny.
He’s also really starting to follow us with his eyes. You can tell his taking in his surroundings and starting to pay attention to movement and sound. It’s such an unreal feeling to be able to call to him and have him turn and look right at you. I love just calling to him whenever he’s in his swing, bassinet, cot or Dad’s arms.
He’s also starting to sleep for longer, which is bliss. Last night the little angel slept from 11pm to 3:30pm and it was heaven. Heaven! Admittedly I woke in a panic at 1:30am checking to make sure he was ok, but still – heaven!
His eyes changed colour this week. They’ve always been a dark slate grey but this week they’ve actually taken on a really brown hue. At different times they have a blue tinge still to them, but it’s becoming obvious that he’s going to have brown eyes.
..you think I’m cute, right?…
On the weekend I achieved a major milestone; I took Sam out into public and it wasn’t for a doctors appointment! HUBBY and I took Sam to the local shopping center on Saturday. It was so surreal to be pushing a pram. Even more surreal to see our little man out in the big bad world. It’s funny, before we went out I was thinking about how big he’s gotten and how much he’s growing. We get out in public and I was immediately struck with how small he is. Tiny!
I was on edge the whole time we were in the center. I was on the lookout for anyone that looked like they were carrying the plague. I only lasted an hour before it was all too much and I just wanted to be home. But the main thing is, I did an hour IN PUBLIC… WITH SAM!
On Sunday just Sam and I went out. We went to a girlfriend’s house to catch up with her and her newborn (a week older than Sam) and with a girlfriend who’d just gotten back from an overseas trip. I was on edge all day in the lead up to leaving the house. It was like I knew something was coming and I couldn’t relax.
It was the first time I had driven with Sam in the car. It was the first time I went anywhere with Sam without HUBBY. And you know what, we survived and even (shock horror) had a great time.
It’s encouraged me to get out of the house some more with Sam, so over the next week I’ve lined up some outtings for the two of us. It should be fun! Hopefully the more we do it the easier it will become.
…just hanging out together…
Life is really good at the moment. I’m getting more and more confident with things and we’re all starting to get into more of a groove. I’m still trying to reconcile the fact that my time is no longer my own and therefore I struggle to get things done. (Like replying to emails!) But every day I feel like we’re learning how to be a little more organised and a little more in control of things.
I seriously never thought that I could be so in love with someone as I am with Sam. I also never thought that adding to our family would magnify the love that is between HUBBY and I, but it has. It’s not always roses, but it’s so much better than I ever thought it would be. Would have to say, IVF; it’s money well spent.