I’ve been on holiday. It wasn’t planned but it was desperately needed. Sometimes you just need to get away to get some perspective you didn’t realise you needed.
I’m taking a broom to my life. It’s time to clean out, prioritise and to recalibrate for the course we’re on.
I don’t know why I feel like I have to be busy all the time, that’s it’s not an acceptable use of my time to just being doing one thing instead of trying to be everything to everyone.
I’ve really enjoyed the past 6 months, but it’s been too much. Events occurred during the coordination of the Exhibition that I had no way of predicting happening when I took on the role. These events have depleted my emotional reserves and it’s time to fill them back up.
I took the Little Man to see his Grandparents and while the trip home provided some respite it also helped me make some decisions that I had been avoiding.
I feel the need to go through our life and cull the excess. I used to have a need to be surrounded by books and now I just see them as dust collectors. We never read them and they’re now just an unsafe magnet for the Little Man. For the first time in my life I don’t want to be surrounded by stuff.
We have so much stuff in this house that we don’t use and don’t need and I’m ready to get rid of it all and free up our space to do other things with it. So I’ve decided that the last weekend in September we’re going to have a garage sale. Anything we don’t sell we’re going to donate or junk and to make sure that happens I’m going to have a skip sitting on the front lawn so there’s no delay; it doesn’t sell it’s moving on out.
I feel the need to pare back in other areas as well. I’m over committed and it’s causing me guilt. I have too many competing priorities and I’m feeling pulled in a hundred different directions and it’s not doing anyone any good, especially me.
It’s time to priorities my commitments. I need time to be creative and I’m not getting that at the moment and when I do make time I feel guilty about it and it’s robbing it of it’s joy. I just want to feel excited by making again. The only way to do that is to make it a priority and not feel guilty about it.
There’s other things in my life that are starting to crystallize as well, things that have been floating around, in and out of my focus. I feel like I’m on the cusp of a big mental shift. Life is changing, evolving… getting better. It’s just time to slow down.